Having Thoughts
Question
Hi, Is it possible for you NOT to publish this question on your website? It makes me more comfortable to ask. Thanks. I am a frum person(ultra orthodox) from a frum community. Lately I am consumed with doubts. Doubts about the coming of moshiach, or about yiddishkeit in general. I also find myself jealous of those who are less restricted with tznius, or mixing with the opposite sexes. These are my constant thoughts: " There are communities that are much more lenient with these type of things so why would I want to follow the more restricted ones, do I get more Schar if I do, How can I prove it? Why if we have the same torah can they have mixed seating and us seperate seating. Or why is one dress code way more strict than others? Is there a schar for abiding to the more strict rules.. Is there anything you recommend to strengthen my Emunah and also my pride in yiddishkeit?? Thanks so much. I am so looking forward to your response. Respectfully, Renee