Hi Rabbi, I hope you are well. I'm really struggling and i don't really know who to turn to. I don't really struggling with my sexuality or my Judaism alone but together its really hard for me like i cant enjoy one without hating the other, what's most difficult is feeling like an outsider no matter where i go. I know there's a huge sentiment of togetherness and community but i feel a really large amount of Jews left behind and stranded. My main question is asking if you have any advice at all on how to enjoy all parts of my identity to love both my gayness and Judiasm? I've reached out to a religous person before they said its hard and complicated (which i already know, i have to live it) and that i need to understand what it means to be a gay jew But i dont really know how to start understanding that or where i must go to find an understanding of that? Im really sorry to bother with this and if you have any ideas or advice id really really appreciate i really cant live like this. Thank you Regards, (Name Withheld)