I’m a teenage girl who has been thinking about converting to Judaism for years, but I don’t know where to start. My family is Christian (kind of), and I’m not sure how they’d react, so I don’t think I can convert until I’m out of the house in a few years, as well as I can't contact local synagogues or rabbis since I live in a relatively small town and my parents would find out. What should I do? I’ve been trying to learn Hebrew and have been reading articles and watching videos, but I’d love some ideas on what steps I can take now or any resources you'd recommend. I can't have any physical books lying around the house or anything like that. I just feel very lost right now and I'm not sure what to do. Lately I've felt like my life has lacked something, and when studying Judaism it feels like it fills that part of my life that I'm missing, but I will likely have to wait years before making any major changes in my life. I just need something that I can do with my time now so I'm ready when I'm able to. Thank you!