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Hello! I am 13 years old, and have recently decided that I would like to explore Judaism. My grandmother is Jewish, although from my understanding she doesn't practice much anymore. My parents however, raised me to just not have a religion at all. Anyways, I have a few Jewish friends at school who try to help me, but, frankly, I'm lost. I want to have a relationship with G-d, and I have been reciting the morning, afternoon, and evening prayer, along with some prayers for family and praying when I'm anxious/nervous etc., but I don't know how to pray, if there's a limit to how many times a day I can pray, if there's things that I should be praying before (such as eating) etc., so I really just don't know what to do. On top of all this, I haven't told my parents, and I'm really, really scared of how they'll react, or if they'll just think it's a phase of some sort. I don't really know what my plan is, but right now I guess I would just like to be a reform. Also, since my parents don't know, I can't go to a Synagogue or anything.